Life update: I'm in summer school right now and it's causing the strangest mix of emotions; morbid, productive, relieving, terrible. I just really don't know how I feel about it. On the surface I'm like, "Yes! 20 days, 9 credit hours, let's do this!" and then I think about it longer and my Biology class is five hours long and I still have homework for it... I think it's something I would recommend but with fair warning.
As for art, my passions have been creeping up to a boil in my heart. I want to draw, paint, sing, tear apart, build up, rip, glue, photograph, repeat. I want to see the country and perpetually have flowers in my hair. That's what I really want to do.
Despite college, I have had such a liberating summer so far; honestly. I've grown to know the sun and the sea more than I ever have before. I left my job I've had for the past three summers because it made me feel oppressed and miserable and tired. I don't have a job at all right now because I'm at school most of the week. But I've still had bills to pay! At first I was scared to quit my job, but I knew it just wasn't where I needed to be. Since I quit, all of this money has been coming to me in random, unexpected ways! It's always just enough too. How awesome is that? I've totally let go of stressing over money and have instead been trusting the big guy to take care of me. What a freeing experience.
On top of that I've been wanting to join the Bikram Hot Yoga studio in town for forever but I obviously haven't had the money. What do you know? The studio has a Karma Krew, where you clean the studio one night a week in exchange for unlimited free yoga! My first class is tonight.
I can't believe how actively my life has been growing and changing and becoming more like what I've always hoped it to be. I'm a blessed soul indeed.
“I go to nature to be soothed and healed, and to have
my senses put in tune once more.” – John Burroughs
xoxox
